Semper Fidelis

ii am just a tad bit scarred right now simply because we got a bucket full of new females today. this is not usually a problem because ii am graduating shortly so ii wont be looking at them too much longer. however…for the past month ii have had a room all to my lovely self [...]

capable of deception
of the very worst kind
too much of a coward
to stab me in the front
so life takes me from behind
and like a virgin i bleed
but my soul has been scared
walking on uneven streets
faith wont take me very far
a pool of pain
growing within
and i drown in that sea
turned on by my only friend
yes, i [...]

ii hear you got a dime
yup thats me
but you’re friends
with the main supplier
so you got me for free
pen hits paper
yup we burning trees
this shit right here
got me on a lyrical high
eyes blood shot
from looking love in the eye
you could say im addicted
cause without you i die
but if you take me
and those same trees
roll us together
so [...]

read me a bedtime story
and rock my soul to rest
slumber is needed
my heart needs dreaming
so read me one of your best
the story of how You created me
in the exact likeness of You
or maybe the one
about how you sent your Son
to cleanse me of what i been thru
look thru Your book shelf of heaven
dust off those [...]

ii walk past mirrors
as if my reflection doesnt exist
and for some reason
i hang my head in shame
but why??
someone tell me who ii am right now
because all there is to me
is a simple blank page
and every single day
they scribble on my soul
like little kids at play
but Someone erases the markings
before they can be seen
and piece by [...]

[[bull s**t niggaz]]

to the broke back
super wack
“oh she cute im tryna tap that”
to the no goals
todum poles
“ima let the good ones go”
the lying dumb
crutty bum
s**ht on the bottom of my right tennis shoe
scum
bag nigga
this is my ode to you
see, im a respectful female
so i give credit where it is due
you get credit
for screwing up
and screwing [...]

behavior that stretches negativity
in so many ways
merging has began
souls cry out in helpless agony
and Satan laughs at bitter cries
what is the cost
you become your enemy
and what do you gain?
deception seeps from your pores,
tainted flesh
that is too dark to be smudged
you cant even see your own death
when your reflection stands at your toes
do you sell your souls
in order [...]

i’m sad but no tears will fall 
i’m hurt but things are sure to get better
underneath the pain, my heart rejoices
cause I know that she’s in heaven
and now my lil sis Vicky is hurting
and I can try my best to be there
thru her tears and disappointments
we can only show her that we care
and im sorry to [...]

as if waiting for the storm to pass
i sit patiently
hushing the cries
of the people around me
consoling the hearts
that nature has shredded
they hide under beds
some under tables
and others rest uncalmly
in the comfort
of their their own strength
but i sit
in the middle of floors
as if nothing no where
can be a hazard
and i dont run from oncoming danger
nor do [...]

love is for chumps
or should i say
i just aint into that stuff
holding hands as you walk
sitting up
late at night
five hour talks
grown men and women
sitting around
boo loving
deep throat tongue-ing
like tomorrow aint coming
pet names
childish games
sweet chemistry
romantic flames
i need someone to explain
are there laws to this shyt
that say when you ten feet from ya house
you just aint allowed [...]