untitled May 18, 2008

with the tears that ii shed
with the blood that ii poured
it seeps thru the cracks
my love has been tainted
corrupted
and left in disarray
how dare ii care
after you lay upon me your griefs
night after night
my heart is no longer open
your name erased
no more tears on my face
only corrupted wishes
tainted thoughts
stolen hearts
the tight grip
that i once possesed
has been [...]

foreign language April 16, 2008

you look into my eyes
from across the room
and the corners of your mouth
reach toward heaven
as if to thank God personally
for sending me to you
your hands linger
in the small of back
when we embrace
and your heart beat tells me
thats where you want me to stay
and with those same hands
you grip her hips
as if lifting her out of [...]

if i could write you a letter… January 30, 2008

dear you
hello my love
to whome it may concern
to the one
who has shattered fragile spaces
with words left unsaid
to the one
whose frightening silence
has birthed a new pain

if i could write you a letter

the salutation would stop abruptly
at exactly 6 pages long
because the things you mean to me
would go on and on and on

if i could write you [...]

old you October 16, 2007

if i could go anywhere
i’d go back in time
when nothing mattered
and we were living the life
i would go back to the craziness
if it meant seeing a smile on your face
because you are not yourself
and no one could take your place
i would go back to the days, rather the nights
that we sat on my rooftop
and we [...]

the day after tomorrow September 19, 2007

forever will be here
whenever the morning comes
but i promised you forever and a day
so on the day after tomorrow
whenever that may be
i’ll say goodbye and walk away
because with everyday that passes by
i seem to love you less and less
and i guess one becomes empty
after giving someone else their best
life support is not an option
we’ll let [...]

[RIP Brielle] September 4, 2007

it’s crazy how life is
and how things can just be
how one day some one can be here
and the next day everybody saying R.I.P
Just to look around and witness
so many affected by her lost
this is the great life that we live
and this, my friends, is what it costs
my eyes are burning tremendously
from holding back raging cries
every [...]

she smiles August 13, 2007

she smiles
tho tears fall
and heart hurt
she still smiles
looking in the eyes
of the only person
that she has ever loved
and she says goodbye
she smiles
but her heart is breaking
and her legs are shaking
because this a lifeline
that she doesn’t want to pull
because when she disconnects
for a few seconds
she’ll be out of breath
but still she smiles
and onlooker wonder why
after losing [...]

[untitled] June 15, 2007

I hug the air that lingers between us
and I blow kisses at the wind
praying that one day
they would reach you.
i tell secrets in the night
and read bedtime stories
like you are supposed to do.
I spend my days praying
that my knight in shining armor
will not be like you.
I take time out for dreams
that end with me saying I [...]

just plain love June 7, 2007

we have loved
in every way
imaginable
we have found solace
in seperation
and now in compromise
we have angered
and we have hurt
and we have no regrets
we have loved
deeply
sincerely
this force that binds
has taken over our bodies
like an uncureable disease
seeking its revenge
and we have beat it
we have escaped
one anothers wrath
and embraced something
that is stronger than anything
we have ever known
and now we stand
holding [...]

letter to a baby…unborn June 5, 2007

ripped.. pulled..stolen
from the only life line
that you knew existed.
taken away from
the only comfort
that you had ever met
and who’s fault is it??
her’s or his?
he wasn’t there
and you would have suffered
without him
but you didn’t have to live
with him
so do you hate her
or do you despise him??
you were seperated
from the only security that you had found
the only air [...]