untitled May 18, 2008

with the tears that ii shed
with the blood that ii poured
it seeps thru the cracks
my love has been tainted
corrupted
and left in disarray
how dare ii care
after you lay upon me your griefs
night after night
my heart is no longer open
your name erased
no more tears on my face
only corrupted wishes
tainted thoughts
stolen hearts
the tight grip
that i once possesed
has been [...]

letter to a baby…unborn June 5, 2007

ripped.. pulled..stolen
from the only life line
that you knew existed.
taken away from
the only comfort
that you had ever met
and who’s fault is it??
her’s or his?
he wasn’t there
and you would have suffered
without him
but you didn’t have to live
with him
so do you hate her
or do you despise him??
you were seperated
from the only security that you had found
the only air [...]

nature speaks May 11, 2007

stars kiss the night time sky
as if to sweetly say “goodnight”
and i envy the blanket
that covers up morning
because i never once got a goodnight kiss from you
tree branches embrace the wind
so gently as if to say “I’ll protect you”
and I secretly hate the soft breeze
because you were never there
to hug me when I was scared
snow [...]

change April 12, 2007

it aint the same
every single day people seem to change
and I wonder when it all went wrong
Everyday is a struggle
and yet I make it thru
and I never glorify myself
cause to Him the glory is due
but when I look around
i get discouraged
when did sex and babies
come before marriage?
when did we stop caring
this sin fill life that [...]

fear of forgiveness April 10, 2007

She stands… five foot four [and a half]
but she feels so miniture
like less than the lady they said she has become
but if they could only see thru her
they would know
that her heart was on the verge of coming undone
because at that very moment
she had to tell them the one thing
that they probably would hate her [...]

outcaste April 9, 2007

She’s an outcaste
It took her 23 years
to learn to love herself
but it only took
1 year and 4 months
to hate what she saw thru that refective glass
her soul has crashed
and with eyes wide open
she dreams
and she prays
every single day
that she could just erase
all that pain
because deep down inside
she knows
that if she could somehow undo
what he did [...]

the numbers say it all March 22, 2007

mothers cry
as their sons die
and a nation laughs out loud
another soldier dies
but we’ve become so desensitized
that we dont care anymore
after four years
of blood being shed
we stand
and only a select few
are really bothered by
the ten o’clock news
of another life taken away
we flick thru channels
and ignore the numbers
because we no longer care
that our country
is losing a battle
that [...]

paths to her heart March 20, 2007

the scars that cover her hands and legs
are her diary
the lines that cross her spine
have held secrets for years
that no one has figured out
the imprints on her face
that are often covered up by a smile
are lies that she has never told
scars that have healed over years
and have worn down her insides
only to have people
stare at [...]

[untitled] March 19, 2007

if I could count correctly
how many nerves I had in my body
I would hate you
only because you get on
every single one
and if i could count
all the hairs on my head
I’d hate you
only because
you make me wanna pull out
every single one
If I could count
every time my heart beats in one minute
i’d hate you
cause you make me hurt [...]