[untitled] June 15, 2007

I hug the air that lingers between us
and I blow kisses at the wind
praying that one day
they would reach you.
i tell secrets in the night
and read bedtime stories
like you are supposed to do.
I spend my days praying
that my knight in shining armor
will not be like you.
I take time out for dreams
that end with me saying I [...]

letter to a baby…unborn June 5, 2007

ripped.. pulled..stolen
from the only life line
that you knew existed.
taken away from
the only comfort
that you had ever met
and who’s fault is it??
her’s or his?
he wasn’t there
and you would have suffered
without him
but you didn’t have to live
with him
so do you hate her
or do you despise him??
you were seperated
from the only security that you had found
the only air [...]

nature speaks May 11, 2007

stars kiss the night time sky
as if to sweetly say “goodnight”
and i envy the blanket
that covers up morning
because i never once got a goodnight kiss from you
tree branches embrace the wind
so gently as if to say “I’ll protect you”
and I secretly hate the soft breeze
because you were never there
to hug me when I was scared
snow [...]

Father I Never Had April 17, 2007

F orgive me for not caring enough to miss you,
A nd look over the fact i cant want something
T hat was never available to me. I cant want
H appy memories when I’ve never
E xperienced them. I cant wish for you because
R eality stops my mind from day dreaming.
I  dont wonder nor do I wish
N o one [...]