when God sent us you November 5, 2007

you’re amazing
and i know you feel it
everybody crowd around
cause they know what the deal is
and it’s funny cause I never thought
i’d find this security in you
deserving everything you get
cause of everything you been thru
been dismissed by so many
but you got mad love from the heart of me
i bet you never thought after all these years
you’d [...]

[untitled] June 15, 2007

I hug the air that lingers between us
and I blow kisses at the wind
praying that one day
they would reach you.
i tell secrets in the night
and read bedtime stories
like you are supposed to do.
I spend my days praying
that my knight in shining armor
will not be like you.
I take time out for dreams
that end with me saying I [...]

why is the sky blue?? June 6, 2007

i dont understand you
and i dont want you to understand me
because our misunderstandings
keep us seperated
and the last thing that I want
is to be connected to you
subtle questions keep us at a distance
why are the rainbows colorful
and why is the sky blue?
There is no explanation
for the things that you do
and you cant find a reason
to excuse [...]

letter to a baby…unborn June 5, 2007

ripped.. pulled..stolen
from the only life line
that you knew existed.
taken away from
the only comfort
that you had ever met
and who’s fault is it??
her’s or his?
he wasn’t there
and you would have suffered
without him
but you didn’t have to live
with him
so do you hate her
or do you despise him??
you were seperated
from the only security that you had found
the only air [...]

times change June 1, 2007

years pass us by
and smiles make memories
and no matter
what happens or where you are
you’ll always have me
months sneak through days
and laughs soon fade
and no matter what happens
i’ll always have you
we are ‘one in the same’
i am you and you are me
we are flyness personified
and even through our quarrels
and disagreements
i wouldn’t ever ask God for anything better
because [...]

Letter to an Angel May 25, 2007

i wrote you a letter
two nights in a row
but I didnt know heaven’s address
and so i sat them to the side
neatly folded.
and I purposed to record
all the stories that you’ve missed
over the years.
and I even remembered
to buy the yarn that you like
so maybe if you get bored
you can make blankets for the angels,
and while you’re at it
you can [...]

when you go May 24, 2007

I dont know
when you’ll fly away
to a better place
and I’m not to sure
when you’ll bid your farewell
with a smiling face
and I question
constantly
when you’ll leave in my heart
an aching space
but i know that now
you are here
and now you are well
so i’ll jump into your arms
and i’ll give you kisses
that you dont want
and I’ll sit upon your [...]

nature speaks May 11, 2007

stars kiss the night time sky
as if to sweetly say “goodnight”
and i envy the blanket
that covers up morning
because i never once got a goodnight kiss from you
tree branches embrace the wind
so gently as if to say “I’ll protect you”
and I secretly hate the soft breeze
because you were never there
to hug me when I was scared
snow [...]

April 23, 2007

i look back at life
&& the way it has been
&& smiles come to my face
not because it was always easy
but because i made it through
the few tough spots
&& in the end
joy is what i got
&& i think i owe some of that to you
cause you were the one that prayed
&& you made sure
i was well [...]

Father I Never Had April 17, 2007

F orgive me for not caring enough to miss you,
A nd look over the fact i cant want something
T hat was never available to me. I cant want
H appy memories when I’ve never
E xperienced them. I cant wish for you because
R eality stops my mind from day dreaming.
I  dont wonder nor do I wish
N o one [...]